I'm hanging here bleeding from every pore
especially my head, the blood filling my eyes,
When you outrage them and they catch up with you
you don't die fast
they make it take a long time
they jeer and mock the whole time
I begged all last night on my knees
that I wouldn't end up here
I would of done anything to get out of it
I just uttered a curse everyone heard
it was the ultamite in cowardise
the ultamite sign I punked out
it was beyond begging
Thats how bad I been defeated
I got ratted out by the one I should of known would do it
He lived for money.
How could I not have seen anything was for sale to him
I let him in my inner circle
and they offered him some money
the other family
and he sold me out
a guy who lives for money
thats his only quality
I mean if I had been more perceptive
I'd of figured out
the only reason he was hanging around me
was the thought he could get more money of that
then I made that stupid remark a
about how I didn't care about money
he knew then to go to the other side
they care about money
he was always shrude like that
observing where the money was
who was gonna give it up
where he could get it
and I gave up the secret
he couldn't get it from me
so he went to them and sold me out
of course he did
a serpent doesn't change his nature
what did I think I had, his will
thats why he was following me around
people follow you around
because they think they can get
what their nature demands they get
by parasiting of you
once I showed him
he couldn't get it from me
he sold me out quick
My best friend
he betrayed me in a second
they asked him if he knew me
man no one knows you when your down and out
no ones gonna claim to know you
when they see where you end up
when you act like I did
they might end up like that to
their gonna say they never knew you
there gonna swear they didnt know you
I'm surprised they didn't help to put me to pain
to prove he didn't know me
he wasn't about to claim me
that would of possibly put him where I am now
and I just punked out
screamed out the ultamite defeat
I mean gave the ultamite blowjob
sold out all my dignity
The dignity I think I was born with
the dignity that carried me through my life
the diginity I would bend on
I was a hard ass
you have to be in this game
but when they break hardasses
they make sure they brake them all the way
they aint happy unless theyre sniveling and balling
even when thats done they aint happy
they gotta do one more cheap thing to you
to make it clear to everyone you are garbage
cause they don't like the idea
you once threatened them
once they reduce you to garbage
they feel like they can't be threatened by anyone
so there not gonna just punk you out
make you beg
cry alone in the darkness for someone to take your dignity
there gonna make sure when there done
you aint just a punk
your garbage
it eases them
peace of mind
I'm finished now
they did the ultamite thing to me
they had to brake me
they had to win
there was a lot at stake
a lot of power
and only humiliating completely
he who threatens you
wins you over the power completely
and whipes out his memory
his influence all of it
on garbage,
at the end I'm done
you don't live to long
not in the fast lane I was put to live
